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Lost
27.01.2004
The day I met you, was a good one
The day we parted was a bad one
I thought we were friends through good and bad,
But I was wrong, we only were friends through my good times
You never understood my love, cause it was unreal
You set yours above, cause you thought yours was
But you were wrong and hurt me all along
Feelings are real, no matter for whom
Real or unreal is never a point
Believe what your heart tells you that's what counts
I never betrayed your love for me
I gave you always the feeling to be free
Never chained you to myself
Helped you through your hard times
As a friend, that's what I was meant to be.
And at the end, that's what betrayed me.
I look out the window and snow is covering the ground
The world looks frozen and so am I feeling inside
Lost for the world and left alone
Waiting for spring to warm my heart again
The day I met you, was a good one
The day we parted was a bad one
Farewell
21.07.2004
The icy grip of loss holds me
heart.
As I told you we have to go apart.
A fast ending is better then a slow.
We both have our chosen ways to go.
Yours is your families way.
Mine leads me further away.
My eyes cry as I write this down.
The tears wetting the front of my gown.
Thinking of our deep friendship
and that u can't stand up for it.
I enjoyed the time we've been together,
but I always knew it would not be forever.
A last kiss and a caress on your cheek,
I wished my knees wouldn't feel so weak.
Time has come to speak our farewell.
Knowing you will lead your life well.
Unreal
07.02.2004
An unreal kiss, an unreal touch,
if you only knew, that I miss you so much.
A kiss on your lips, a touch on your chest.
Time puts our love to the test.
I want to believe our love is true,
but do you miss me as much as I miss you?
The answer lays there, in my aching heart
but want I to know, as long as we're apart?
So many questions and no answers for me,
will you help me to set them free?
Another touch, another kiss,
a cuddle is that what I really miss.
Someone who wipes my tears away,
who knows me well and the way I play.
A tickling play, followed by laughter in bed,
they are thoughts they run through my head.
Real or unreal, I cant tell,
but I know my feelings very well.
You hold a piece of my heart forever
but our love has to wait, till we are together.
~~Mariasha~~
19.04.2004
Her
body so slender and lean as she dances
swaying
and moving like reed in a breeze
my
heart races and my eyes glances
as
the flute and drums lead her feet
she
captured my heart with her beauty
her
eyes burning into my soul
I
thought she would love me truly
but
her heart was just a black hole
Her
sweet lips spoke of our future
but
all she wanted was my blood
I
never thought love could be such a torture
and
I shivered as I saw her look under the hood
It
felt cool as the Helvetic winters day
as
the dagger got pushed through my heart
"Mariasha,
why?“ were the last words I say.
before
my soul started her way on its chart.
And
here is where my body and soul sunders
and
my long journey about revenge starts
A
goddess grabbed my soul and made me one of her hunters
Till the day I’ll find my soul mates hearts.
Hot Cyber
17.04.2004
A pair of lips meeting in passion,
at the end of another hot session.
It started with flirting words,
flying between us like cheeky birds.
I liked the attention, I wasn’t used.
You loved the affection that fused.
Every bit and byte started gleaming,
as the first touch left us steaming.
The lines got hot and so were we.
Our thrilled fantasy flying free.
We stripped slowly, piece by piece.
Following our sudden caprice.
Your hot breath and kisses on my breasts,
let me shiver, begging your lips not to rest.
You smile and move further down on me,
letting me quiver in delightful agony.
The touch of your lips gets unbearable
your tongue doing things, incomparable.
Licking and tasting my secret juices.
I scream of joy, finding no excuses.
Not anymore, will I fight what you give.
Just accepting what you do and outlive.
Your lips leaving my body, but only short,
as my body feels weak without your support.
Only seconds later you lay on top of me.
Your body fulfilling my deepest fantasy.
I sling my legs around your thrusting hips.
Feeling the energy, in my sizzling fingertips.
Licking the salty skin of your broad shoulders
as you push through my swollen folders.
Back and forth in a steady rhythms pace,
bringing us both to a higher place.
A spiral of power and gleaming ecstasy,
lights us the way to another galaxy.
Thousand of Stars burst before my eyes,
as stormy feelings lift me up in the skies.
You follow me there, by calling my name.
and I know your feelings are exactly the same.
Panting and shivering we calm down again
both exhausted and feeling a little insane.
A lol shows up on your flickering screen
and I know your face shows a huge grin.
Whatever it was we shared tonight,
it for sure was better then any fight.
08.05.2004
I felt your pain, when you told me your sorrow.
Wished I could make it easier for you tomorrow.
You still loved him and missed him so much.
Knowing this feelings, missing the same soft touch.
We shared good fun and lots of laughter.
Giggled over hunks and and their chase after.
I told you, my sis, my deepest secret of all.
Not thinking that it would bring me to fall.
Even knowing what I felt for him,
you just let him lift your little skirts rim.
Let him touch and kiss you, on the lips
while back and forth, you moved your hips.
But he was more faithful that you ever will be
and he showed me, what you did to betray me.
My heart split apart the moment I saw
the proof leaving my soul open raw.
A single question ran through my mind
"How could you, was i really so blind?"
I think my big heart was in my way again.
looks like I will never learn, to use my brain.
Don't trust women and men, as fast as I do,
cause most times, your heart gets pierced through.
Don't you dare to call me ever sis once more
cause that's a word someone calls you, you care for.
I want to...
06.04.2004
I want to be dead...
feeling the cold earth on my head
I want to feel numb...
disinterested to whatever may come
I want to close my eyes...
a last time starring at the unreachable prize
I want my body to feel cold...
my soul feels cheap, to the price she got sold
I want to stop to breath...
and as i leave earth, may heaven and hell freeze
I want to be angry...
cause my heart and soul still feels hungry
I want to be loved...
but my body and mind feel unloved
I want to be dead...
just lying cold in my bed
Lust
23.05.2004
Bright dark flaming red
laying in a green bed
with a hint of gold
your request nearly bold
eat me, eat me,
you seem to scream.
hmmm I would love
to enjoy you with cream.
juicy, fresh and very sweet
gawd how much I love to eat
licking my fingers quick cleanly
cant wait for next summers strawberry serenely
Scream in the dark
07.04.2004
She wants to scream out all her pain,
but all she can do, is cry and feel vain.
Feeling like a stupid clown,
running and stumbling, falling down.
Strong enough to go on,
but to weak to fight the moron.
Heart breaking, soul shaking,
where might fate her taking?
She cant see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Desperately climbing through a tight, dark funnel
Smoke bites in her eyes and makes her cough.
Every attempt to scream gets cut off.
She prays and pleads for her fast salvation,
but all she gets, ends in endless frustration.
Dumb screams echoing through her mind.
Is everybody around her blind?
In the dark she is waiting for the end,
to weak and to tired to go on and contend.
