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Ice Queen
10.12.2004
Some things are never meant to be
and then our hearts start to flee
Wrong times and wrong moments
Long nights filled with arguments
A never ending story of no trust
Both sides hurting in disgust
Pulling and tearing at the others heart
And all they achieve is to drift apart
How much she wishes, she could turn back time
To a place where every thing was worth a dime
Love was love and nothing more
That was what she was fighting for
Her heart’s now frozen, like the snow
As she walks through the ice flower’s bow
Her eyes glitter of uncried tears
The cold air hitting her lungs like spears
She doesn’t looks back to what has been
Cause there is nothing she hasn’t yet seen
Time will go by and wounds will heal
But she will never forget what he made her feel.
Shattered Feelings
17.12.2004
Shattered glass beneath
my feet.
My premonitions like a threat.
A few words from your lips,
my heart bleeding as it rips.
Deep down I knew it all the time,
that you would never truly be mine.
All your promises about a future together,
blow from the wind, like a single feather.
Carried away, high in the sky,
while I stay grounded, asking why.
Wasn’t I good enough for you
or where your feelings just not true?
Did I care too much or not enough
or was this all a big bad bluff?
I remember the time when u told me off,
for nearly kissing another, what a scoff!
While I planed your birthdays surprise,
you thought already of your goodbyes.
My throat burning, hurting sears,
from crying endless seas of tears.
Never should I have let you take my heart,
I should have let my mind speak from the start.
Dark
19.12.2004
Dark it is, at this place all alone.
Shivering and freezing to the bone.
The lights went out, in one moment
and my heart twisted in torment.
Reaching out for what once was light,
days of happiness and delicious delight.
Waves of pain washing over me,
as I read love letters you wrote to me.
Sweet words of faith and trust,
assign them to the fire, watch them combust.
Hearing the wooden frame splinter,
as the picture in it gets lost in winter.
Snow covering what’s left of the fire,
as my soul climbs higher and higher.
Crimson
6.1.05
What was it that I didn’t say
That made you hate me all the way
Thoughts that circle in my mind
As I walk down the empty street
Open the door to my apartment
Silent is all that waits for me
Sitting on the lonely couch
Seeing all the happy endings on TV
My eyes sunken into my face
Dead to the world, the knife beside me
Numb my fingers as I reach for you
No warmth or life that could comfort me
All I touch is the cold stainless steel
Wanting to feel something warm
I lift the knife and cut my arm
A quick pain and a low moan
Then I can feel the warm blood flow
I lean back into the pillows
As I watch the wind in the willows
My eyelids feel tired, falling close
As I can feel my spirit rose
Light as a feather I float above
I feel kind of happy, sort of
Watching my heavy body below
With its crimson red cover
All’s over now, nothing to worry
The street is still empty as I walk
But the lonely feeling has gone
Smiling at the sun as I vanish
Away
from you
31.12.2004
I lay in my bed, counting the hours
Thinking of you, not understanding what
You’re doing to me, every second I’m awake
I fight my way through the night,
Trying to run away from you,
But at the end I just arrive at you again
Chorus:
Worlds apart, but still so close
Our souls met and the world stood still
Now it turns again and life goes on
Can’t forget you, but I have to.
My heart beating fast, the pain unbearable
Can’t breath can’t eat, but I truly want away
I run through the night, tears in my eyes
As I wake up from this nightmare
Don’t know what to do about you
Fight through the night, away from you
If I could only understand, accept
What happened with us, with you?
Memories tantalizing me every minute
Stabbing my heart, letting it bleed
When will this stop, when will it go away?
When will I smile again at the sun?
Writing what I feel, writing what I wish,
But it’s all useless, cause it will never be again
Nobody here to listen, nobody there to ask
What happened, why did we break apart?
Why can’t I understand the words coming from you?
Why did you try to tell me, what did you feel?
I’m breaking apart, live unbearable for me
Ever second longer then a live without you
Past love songs echoing thru my mind
as I watch the rain fall or are this my tears,
Blurring my sight to the world
Trying to forget you, banning you from my life.
I’m breaking apart, loosing my heart
My soul left when your heart left me
All feels cold and lifeless around me
Past love songs echoing through my mind
as I watch the rain fall or are this my tears?
All I try is to forget you, banning you.
