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Same old song
2.12.2007
You make
me promises, so sweet
But you fail me badly and complete
Then tell me ‘stop the tears from falling’
While all I do is make them stalling
You make me feel as if I’m worth it
Just to ignore me like a piece of shit
You want to be my friend and help
And still it feels like you pretend
All the pretty words you speak
Make me instantly go weak
But in the end, you’re like the others
It is the deed of ancient brothers
You can’t trust any human being
I never felt more like fleeing
Each time I trust, they proof me wrong
I’m tired of the same old song
Should just stay lonely, on my own
And make my heart go back to stone.
A Kittens Breathe2.1.2008
The kittens breathe, a sweet caress
As they play their game like chess
One makes a move, the other follows
As they search each others hollows
A giggle here, a chuckle there
Till they have to fight for air.
The cheeks are blushed, the voices hushed
The silken sheets between them clutched
Their tension rises to the point
Where none of them will disappoint
And now they part, without the peak
Their knees feel very very weak
This is the end and the beginning
And kittens head is truly spinning.
Clueless
12.2.2007
My mind spins back and forth
in time
Searching for the silver line
Don’t know what or who I am
No one else could give a damn
I’m in pain, can’t you see
Have no place I like to be
Am no vamp, am no kitten
Lost the witchyness, not bitten
Blood means nothing in my life
Love is what I really strife
But how can I love the one I am
If I lost faith, in what I can?
Am no beauty, am no hero
Feel like one big zero
Have no life, no love to lose
Even lost my only muse
Now I’m here, pretending all
Feel so fragile and so small
Put the happy face up just for you
Wondering why you have no clue.
Living End18.1.2008
I think and smile, how easy it would be,
To end this lonely misery.
Pills and alcohol or just a cut along my arm
Till I feel the blood so warm.
I know my mother will be sad
And my dad will probably feel bad
But does it matter what they feel
When it’s me that wants to heal
It is my sadness, my heart that breaks
My soul that needs love and aches
Why is it me who has to suffer?
Why can’t I be a little tougher?
I’m just so tired of it all
So why’s it sin to feel so small
To not to want to live this life
All alone and as no ones wife
I just can’t take it anymore
So I step to the life’s cold shore.
I end it here. I end it now
I give you now, my final bow
A fathers love
18.1.2008
what keeps me from comiting suicide
what is it that makes me hurt so bad inside
is it all the harsh words spoken
or families vow that has been broken
why cant he love me like I am
why does he thinks better of them
am I not worth my fathers love
does he thinks I'm so unworthy thereof
why does he likes the others so much more
while i see them as attention whore
he makes them favours and little gifts
even lets them work easy shifts
while i feel nothing but rejection
when he shows me no affection
he makes me feel, like dirt or worth
so why did he want my birth
Bloodlust
4.4.2008
You
search my pulse, the line of life
Your fangs, sharp like a butchers knife
I close my eyes, give in, in lust
Completely giving you my trust
I little sting, a deeper thrust
And I see the stars combust
Your growl is sharp and comes from deep
As you drink and make me weep
The lights go out, the darkness sinks
as you cherish blood like drinks
I quiver here, beneath your chest
Fulfilling what I call my quest
A Stream of endless tears she cries
17.6.2008
A stream of endless tears she
cries
As the white pearly moon arises
Drop by drop her feelings fall
No ones near to hear her call
Silent is her pain tonight
The moon above, the only light
No one sees and no one hears
What she suffered all these years
Springs went by, and summers too
What she never found were you
Loneliness and a breaking heart
Ripping her life slowly apart
Fake Joy
26.6.2008
your
heart a hole, black as the night
sucking in my pure loves light
I gave you joy, for all I knew
and thought your love for me was true
tossed aside, like some old toy
that cant bring you any joy
fooled by words as sweet as sin
reality thrown to the bin
the green eyed monster followed us
running over us like a tourist bus
and only then I saw the lies
buzzing around like half dead flies
I crawled away, from you that fast
new what we had would never last
I wish you well and mean no bad
and wished I wouldn't feel so glad
A heart so cold
6.7.2008
A heart so cold, lies in your
chest
Covered by a velvet vest
The only time it starts to beat
Is when you bite and graceful feed
Your face so pale so beautiful
So are the eyes, but also dull
You can pretend to be alive
But nothing will revive
Can you even really love?
Is it the reason you let go of?
No efforts to help me through
As my anxiety just grew.
You loved this fear and fed from it
Until the blood was red I spit
You loved and danced
My misery got you entranced
Flaunting her into my face
Since she is a different race
Cold as you, no feelings there
She doesn’t even know to care
This dance macabre on my soul
Broke me apart, a fragile bowl
In the end you helped her win
Now watch my lifeline, growing thin.
Hex Poem
17.7.2008
One two three, as easy as can be
Four five six, I’m talking of a hex
Seven eight nine, your soul will soon be mine
Ten eleven twelve, be careful of yourself
Thirteen fourteen fifteen, you haven’t really seen
Sixteen seventeen eighteen, you think I was just mean?
Nineteen twenty one, the fall has almost come.
Two three four, you acted like a whore
Five six seven, I wish you up in heaven
Eight nine ten, I wish it once again
Eleven twelve thirteen, I’m tired of your scene
Fourteen fifteen sixteen, beware the steps unseen
Seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, I wash my hands so clean
Twenty, one and one, now the hex is done.
A simple wisp of lust
20.7.2008
I turned around and
My eyes were filled with tears
Innocently you laid there
Between white satin sheets
Gently I closed the door
Just to lean against it
Chorus:
Ill always be the ghost in your heart
The one who made you fall apart
A figment of imagination
A simple wisp of lust
The clicking of my heels
On the cold marble floor
Echoing like falling icicles
Your face already vanishing
Leaving my memories blank
Why was I here, who am I now
Repeat Chorus
You’ll be my ghost as I am yours
The one who made me fall apart
A figment of my imagination
A simple wisp of lust
A simple wisp of lust
