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I hate you
27.7.2008
I hate
you for the things you do
I hate you for the love you give
I hate you for the chats we had
I hate you for not loving me enough
I hate you for seeing past the surface
I hate you for making me laugh
I hate you for making me cry
I hate you for inspiring me
I hate you for making me feel beautiful
I hate you for being taken
I hate you for caring for me
I hate you for the tears you cry
I hate you for being so perfect for me
I hate you for the way you tease me
I hate you for the fights we have
I hate you for being you
But most of all I hate myself for loving you.
Beat Me
14.10.2008
Beat me, hit me, tie me down
But please don’t let me ever drown
Rip my heart in thousand pieces
If this is what you really pleases
Sweet caresses, stolen kisses
My body knows, what it misses
Catch my pulse between your teeth
Let my body be your sheath
Hurt me now, hurt me forever
Devour my love, it’s now or never
Take my blood as sacrifice
Make my heart turn into ice
The Mistress
11.8.2008
Her pale face glowing, in the
last suns ray
Her heart just closer to decay
As she stares out to the street
Where the sun and moon just greet
Soon he’ll be here to feast on her
Her handsome lover, her monsieur
Trapped in this ivory tower of love
The stars shine bright on her, above
As tears run slowly down her cheek
And her knees go slightly weak
The pain, when realizing what is true
That she will never be with you
All the craving, just her own
As she sits here all alone
Stolen moments, all she gets
And still it’s not what she regrets
She’d give her life, her soul
To feel and live a life so whole
Pleasure and pain so close enwind
Leaving rivulets of blood behind
Mistress is the word that comes to mind
As she turns her third eye blind
The Tale of the Mermaid that drowned16.10.2008
Once her heart was filled with light
Shining like her scales so bright
She found pleasure in the smallest things
Catching looks when she sings
Many friends came just to listen
Of all the wondrous things that glisten
Her voice so clear, like crystal water
She was definitely her mother’s daughter
Pure was her smile and her heart too
And then to tale starts to come true
She gave her heart, into his hands
As they stood on warming sands
He smiled and whispered vows
Wrapping her in silken bows
She trusted him, had no fear
Her eyes, filled with a joyful tear
A kiss sealed all the vows they pledged
Little she know about the knife, two-edged
The night came fast and so the end
When he left her so contend
She waited hours, waited weeks
Tears running down her burning cheeks
A stranger came, just passing through
Telling her just what was true
Her lover failed to keep her safe
He didn’t fight, was not so brave
Her heart got lost, in pieces too
As she swam out where the ocean’s blue
What filled her chest was cold as ice
And she knew the lonely price
Breathing in and breathing out
Her mourning almost painful loud
And then as heavy as her sigh,
Her body sank, just out of sight
No-one ever heard her sing again
As she died from all this pain
And the moral of this tale
Be prepared for love to fail.
Hex Poem 2
26.10.2008
One two three, I will be finally free
Four five six, forget your lousy tricks
Seven eight nine, you walk a thin fine line
Ten eleven twelve, you only love yourself
Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, I’m walking from this scene
Sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, I’m done with your routine
Nineteen, twenty, twenty one, our bonds will come undone
Two three four, I’ll kick you to the floor
Five six seven, I wish your girls to heaven
Eight nine ten, I wish for real again
Eleven twelve thirteen, my darkness is so keen
Fourteen fifteen sixteen, your love not so pristine
Seventeen eighteen nineteen, fulfilled on Halloween
Twenty, one and one, now the hex is done.
My Love
30.11.2008
My love
is like a white pale rose
That blooms, where no cold wind blows
Unfolding petals pure as snow
Just teasing with the faintest glow
It grows with love and tender care
Even though you’re not aware
My love might prickle now and again
And make you feel the slightest pain
But handle it with care and passion
And it will make the one confession
A love so true, is rarely found
So please think twice before you bound
I crawl around
10.1.2009
I crawl around, in the dark
Clawing on the wet bark
Can’t find a way out of here
Bleeding from a single tear
Hopeless, blank without a glint
My half blind eyes, a greyish tint
The salty tears a burning fire
That screws my pain up high and higher
It feels as if I kneel on shards
Let master death have mixed my cards
Will I live or will I die
Will you hear my last goodbye
The shuffling fills my bleeding ears
As I silently, break out in tears
The salty wet, runs down my cheek
And I feel so tired, endlessly weak
I hold my breath and stop the time
Is my life still worth a dime?
Will someone come and save me here
Or is my end inevitably near
How much pain
11.1.2009
How much
pain, can one heart bear
Before it dies from deep despair
The chest is tight, the pain severe
as rivulets of blood fall from the tear
how can it be, it still survives?
After all the stabs from pointy knifes.
The love is gone and so the hope
And I feel numb as if on dope
Why did I trust them, once again
how could I be so damn insane
didn’t learn from past relations
believed again in loves creation
but once again it was for nothing
my feelings good enough for tossing
and now I stand alone once more
feel even lonelier then before
the love is gone and so are you
as I wave ,you two adieu
My Soulmate
2.6.2009
You’re always here, but not
with me
And after all, it still can’t be
Remembering your touch, a kiss
And how it felt, the total bliss
The tears keep falling, one by one
As I listen, to our song
The siren called out to your heart
And pulled you closer part by part
Love was all, she thought was needed
While her tearing eyes just pleaded
All she craved, was love with him
And then, all started turning grim
You woke her up, a kiss of life
Her heart in pain, cut by a knife
The crave for energy, and blood
Her senses drowning in a flood
Can’t be with you, nor without
The pumping of her heart too loud
Her soul familiar, kitten like
Brushed up against you, so much alike
Two felines, bound by fate
And almost turned it into hate
Comfort, brings her onto your lap
To close the space, the aching gap
But time has past and still no change
We moved apart, lives rearranged
The bond’s alive, vibrating colours
Our talks, still holding on for hours
And when we’re not, then I can tell
I feel your presence like a spell.
Final Call
13.6.2009
If I had a knife, to cut out a soul
I would use it on me, to gain back control
And if I know on how to do,
I would fill the space with cotton wool
Cause all is better then the constant pain
While you dance around, so gloriously vain
If only you’d feel, the agony
The constant need, I fill with gluttony
But nothing can and ever will
No matter how I scream, be still be still
Stop the voices in my head
The ones who show me, you in their bed
So I feel ashamed, that I can’t leave
And every glimpse I grab like a thief
Cause all I’ll ever get now, just from you
Are stolen moments, and you without clue
You will never know, how big's the pain
As your requests, drive me almost insane
I wish I’d never met you at all
Cause you dug my grave, made the final call
If wishes
13.6.2009
If wishes were knifes
you all would be dead
And I wouldn’t cry, a tear or be sad
And maybe it would, bring back my own smile
Which you stole from me, a rather long while
If wishes were poison, you all would be gone
And I would sing and turn the music on
And maybe I could finally forget about you
And love the guy who was always true
If wishes were fire, you all would burn
And I would dance, and jump at my turn
And maybe it warmed, my cold lonely heart
And I could have, my own happy start
If wishes were ropes, I'd watch you dangle
Laughing at your necks weird angle
And maybe then, I would finally be free
And no longer feel, like an annoying flea
If wishes came true and sometimes they do
I would be the one, who'd take it all for you
And maybe then, you'd finally see
What you really mean and do to me.
